Ambiguously yours

Live your daydream, you find your love, getting the fun part of it, then?

I'm ambiguously yours - is the best position in a relationship - in a sense that you could never lose in the love game - either you could back off or invade, eventually no one knows the end, I mean no one could predict the future.

You think your future is in your hand? Okay excellent. Everyone couldn't know their fate is, someone who is superstitious will try to predict their future in many ways - Fortune telling, horoscopes, tarot.... come on, you think everything is in your control but no way - We live our life, I live my daydream. Our fate is in our own hands. So just go with the flow.

To some extent - love is just a game. You could be the player, getting the fun - then quit the game easily. Or you could stay there - enjoying the ambiguity of it. It's so tempting to be uncertain - that means you could never lose in the game. Life's like gambling. Love's gamble too, to certain extent. You could be serious, playful - getting into itself / losing yourself / being himself / herself - is just a matter of choice actually.

Ambiguously yours - is like a sweet poison. Attractive, dangerous, seductive, unpredictable, tempting, fancy... The best of it is the uncertainty - you never know what the story will end & how will it be.

Have you ever being attracted by a fancy product when window shopping? Impulse shopping makes you to owe it - then after you get on hand - you just throw it away. What's the point of buying things? To celebrate festival? Maybe the model answer is simply because it's just behind the window - you feel like you could never get it somehow - once you got it - you just lose your interest.

That's life. That's human. Isn't it?

The Sweet Poison

Have you ever been addicted to something or someone - in a sense that you feel like you couldn't live without it?

It's delicately malicious - you're being attracted by it/ him/ her in your destiny - even you know if you taste it, you may be in danger. It's like the myth in the Bible, Eve tastes the Apple, then she gives it to Adam.

...The story of Adam and Eve is central to the belief that God created human beings in a Garden of Eden, although they fell away from that state and formed the present world full of suffering and injustice. It provides the basis for the belief that humanity is, in essence a single family, with everyone descended from a single pair of original ancestors. It also provides much of the scriptural basis for the doctrines of the fall of man and original sin that are important beliefs in Christianity, but which are not generally held in Judaism or Islam... A serpent deceives Eve into eating fruit from the forbidden tree, and she gives some of the fruit to Adam. These acts give them additional knowledge, but it give them the ability to conjure negative and destructive concepts such as shame and evil...

text credits: Wikipedia 

Apple is the sweet poison. Another example would be like the sky-diving / roller-coaster / zip-line / car-racing or any dangerous activities you may engage in - you knew it was dangerous - you may lose your life but you're still obsessed with it, provided that it's so tempting to bet your life to enjoy the fun.

If you're dead by this sweet poison, it's still fine. If you're not, then you could only live with it. It's like drug addiction. You could never live without it. You might wanna commit suicide to escape from the pain, seriously / logically / emotionally you won't let yourself do so - the only thing you could do is to live with it - take the pill piece by piece - til the day your story chapter ends.

I never tried this sweet poison in my life - frankly speaking, I don't think it exists in reality indeed - but now I do think I finally got the first bite of it - which deliberately it tastes so exotic & toxic, in a sense that I dunno how to describe. However, I'd never try any drugs in my life for sure, but I guess it's a pretty similar kind of feeling. It's more addictive than getting fully drunk. It's even more addictive than caffeine or nicotine... its outlook & taste make you never forget...

The experience itself I'd describe - unpredictable,  exciting, amazing, surreal, dangerous, confused, mentally retarded - I'm obsessed with the uncertainty of it. I completely lose myself when I take it. But once you tried, you could never stop yourself. How addictive it is!?

Just enjoy this sweet poison!  I'd like to see if I will be poisoned or vice versa, as it works both ways as always. Suppose I get a sneak peek of the addiction. In that case, I'm sure the drug dealer would feel the same too - he'd / she'd probably be attracted by the medication too and definitely tried it himself / herself as it's so attractive like a Scorpio - you know you might be get caught by its tail but you still wanna catch it somehow - keep it as yours - FOREVER.

It drives me even crazier than I expected - Have you found yours?

Despacito / Slowly

Take a step backward & take a deep breathe down... in the fast speed world, working everything like a fast track projects urgently, pay the price of your own health / time / family / love.

Does it worth afterall?

Luis Fonsi - Despacito / Slowly

 (English version)

Step by step, soft softly

We are going to get caught little by little

When you kiss me so skillfully

I think that you're malicious delicately

Step by step, soft softly

We're going to get caught, little by little

And it's just that this beauty is a puzzle

But to put it together here I have the pieces

Slowly

I wanna breathe your neck slowly

Let me whisper things into your ear

So that you remember if you're not with me

Slowly

I wanna strip you off with kisses slowly

Sign the walls of your laberinth

And make your whole body a manuscript
Turn it up

 (Spanish version) 

Pasito a pasito, suave suavecito
Nos vamos pegando poquito a poquito
Cuando tú me besas con esa destreza
Veo que eres malicia con delicadeza.
Pasito a pasito, suave suavecito
Nos vamos pegando poquito a poquito
Y es que esa belleza es un rompecabezas
Pero pa' montarlo aquí tengo la pieza, oye!

Maybe we shud take a break from our work - life is a cycle - we keep repeating our routine everyday, without thinking what's valuable for us. Work / eat / sleep / play - then die? Do you want your life to end like this? Live your own life, think like YOLO - you only live once, probably it will make the life easier.

Sometimes I feel like it doomed to be fate. When I was very young, I never trust in destiny, I don't believe in horoscopes like most gals do - I do think it's boring... But now when I met more frds, especially most of my best frds they are super superstitious which 'badly' influenced me ;)

I used to write my own chapter of life.

Now I do believe maybe it's gd idea to let someone to write your life - slowly.

My secret recipe / 10-min Japanese seasalt tomato noodle

let's continue to create some recipes in the new year!
I make this ready-to-made breakfast early in the morning - it's easy & fast, most importantly - healthy :)


ingredients (serve for 2-3 ppl)
japanese cold noodles               10 pcs
tomato                                      0.5 pcs         
ginger                                       1 teaspoon
shallot                                      1 teaspoon


seasonings
sea salt & pepper         as you like
yuzu spicy sauce         1 tablespoon (on the left)
japanese soya sauce    1 tablespoon (in the middle)

method 
1) boil the japanese for 5 mins, make sure it's al dente
2) slice tomato into half, then pieces
3) add seasonings & sauce
4) mix it w/ ginger & shallot  > done! isn't easy?


small tips
sauces are pretty important, I brought these guys while travelling in Yufuin, I have to say the taste is very unique & really spice up the dish!

Love is Manipulation

Love is Manipulation in a sense that you wanna change your lover - on the other hand - he might wanna change you & turn you into her dream gal. Should I describe it as change or control?

Love is Control, Love is Manipate, Love is Selfish.

Is it good or bad? Well, I have to say it works both way... If you're glad to be manipulated, you're happy to become his/ her slave - I mean you're willing to flip yourself around for him/ her - to certain extent, it means you luv him/ her, that's why you're satisfied to be flipped around.

BUT - most of the time we're just human - we have emotions or what we called ego, if your ego are too big - you'll probably never & ever be manipulated by someone even he/ she is your lover,

Kylie Minogue - Chocolate

If love were liquid it would drown me,
In a placeless place would find me,
In a heart shape come around me and then,
Melt me slowly down,
If love were human it would know me,
In a lost space come and show me,
Hold me and control me and then,
Melt me slowly down

Like chocolate, Tastes so good,
My heart's been mended who'd have thought it would,
An empty bet and still I won the cash,
A man who I love and who,
Loves me back
  

If you are addicted to your lover, you might be changed, there's no doubt about it. People getting influenced easily - no only limited to love, but peer, colleagues, culture... Always bear in mind there're no eternal things in the reality. Everything changes easily, life goes on.

Life is easy in terms of it comes & goes without prediction. Things changed, people changes, why don't you change yourself - not for your lover - but for YOURSELF!

The next question is - Do you call it Manipulate / Manage / Magic or ...?